The Disappeared

So where the hell has everyone gone? Cate and Z are amongst the most recent exits, just two in a long line that have disappeared. They’re two of my favourites – who have been with me since the first post – along with the inimitable Ms I, and a few others. Those that are here (including myself) refrain from posting HNTs in the same quantity nor quality. Thursday used to be a wankfest for me, now some weeks are non-events altogether. I wonder if this mass loss of libido is caused by sunspots… or maybe everyone else’s libido is being sated and it’s just me who’s left thumb-twiddling…

My US trip was good, although not in terms of anything I can describe here. My pleading post (my shame at which almost caused me to delete it) yielded no results, as did an entirely frustrating foray into Craigslist. That said, I was roundly entertained by my colleagues, and friendship can go some way toward relieving a lonely heart (although not a lonely cock, it has to be said). There was one small moment that I very much enjoyed – sitting in First, with the economy-class passengers slowly shuffling by, I saw a very pretty girl that I’d been eyeing up in the terminal. As she waited by my seat I gave her my best “I’d like to fuck you” smile (read: inane grin), and to my surprise she shot a wicked smile and twinkly eyes right back at me, holding my gaze until she was out of sight. I thought about hanging around at baggage reclaim when we landed, and asking for her number, but I had other colleagues to contend with and a car waiting. Shame.

The 22-y-o is not starting her job until early next year, so she (and I) will have to wait. So I need to put my energies into something or someone else. I will try to start writing again, but inspiration is hard to find.

It’s tempting to disappear too, but I think I’ll stick around and see what/who turns up..