Dangerous Liaisons

I was looking at Craigslist yesterday. I read something about in the freebie london paper, thought I’d dabble. It’s an intriguing idea, to just post a message saying “hot sex tomorrow night” and meet up with somebody for sex without even knowing their name. I’ve subsequently been told that it’s not the place to look, but having not actively investigated it didn’t seem a bad place to start.

In general, I’ve been thinking about the potential to actually initiate a liaison and finally give myself the attention I deserve after all this time (because I’m worth it). Writing about sex is great, and I’ve met some fantastic ladies through it, and exchanged all sorts of wnderful erotic words, but sometimes having to dredge my memories to remember what I’m writing about isn’t easy (!). My mind is active, my imagination fertile, but there is still a big gap between what I think and what is real.

It’s a significant step though – switching from mental infidelity to physical adultery (although some would say the former is the bigger step). It’s practically difficult too – fitting in a couple of hours during an extended lunch break is hardly a simple or ideal proposition.

And, of course, there’s the self-doubt as to whether I would be able to remain level-headed and not get bogged down with emotions which I do not want and cannot follow through on. Not to mention the self doubt as to whether I could even perform (it would be an anti-climax – literally and figuratively – on both sides if the prolonged anticipation got the better of me and it was all over in seconds).

I am, by my nature, a massively confident, gregarious and positive person. I am at ease with my body (although the ego boost from NHT was welcome…). But have I the audacity, self-belief, confidence and ability to deceive, not to mention the equipment and outright stamina to peform?

Hmm.